2014-01-13 - What Would Rebekah Say?
Rebekah: Let his curses be on me, dear son. Just do what I tell you. Go out and get the goats. (Genesis 27:13 TLB)
Am I the same woman who by faith left my homeland for a man I never met? I was more trusting back then, more excited about what life could offer. Where was that tremendous faith now? I cannot pinpoint what or whom helped to diminish my faith, whatever the culprit, without God at the center, my scheming nature took control.
I wanted children and unfortunately, had a painful pregnancy. My twins Jacob and Esau kicked and tumbled inside me. I asked God what the trouble was and He told me. It never occurred to me to seek His counsel these many years later when I fixed it so that my beloved Jacob received Esaus blessing.
It was my mess and I had to figure out how to fix it. I dont know how I expected the deception to stay hidden. I just wanted the best for Jacob, nothing against Esau naturally, guess I did not think things through. By not waiting for God, my family was torn apart.
I cannot take back what I did to my family, but now I know if I would have asked God, the results would have been different, would have been better.
Lord, Ive let activities, situations, and even my own thoughts keep me from spending time with You. I am sorry. Show me how to make You a priority and may I not look at being with You as another responsibility, but a joy. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.