2014-02-27 - Circumstances
Who Am I?
1 Chron 17:16 Then David the king went in and sat before the Lord and said, Who am I, O Lord God, and what is my house that You have brought me this far?
Saturday evening through Sunday afternoon was a pretty rough patch this weekend. Circumstances seemed to swirl around me and drag me into a mess. After completing an update on two of our systems where I work another cluster of three large, critical servers crashed. Looking into the problem and correcting it turned into a 13 hour march after what had already been a long day. In the end the recovery was successful, but the process was tedious at times.
Somewhere in the later hours of the recovery and after being up for 33 hours I was becoming a little terse with my responses. Frustration with questions that could wait until later and procedures held up by things beyond my control were all getting the better of me. I was having the proverbial bad day.
Or so I thought.
After some sleep and then praying and listening like I should have all along I was humbled by the realization that my circumstances didn't change one simple fact - God was there all along and I had ignored Him. His comfort and grace were available every minute of every one of those hours. I had allowed circumstances control me rather than submitting myself to His control.
If I am to be a mirror of his love and hope for those around me I must remember who I am. I am His child rather than the one in control. I am the Ambassador of His kingdom and had missed an opportunity for service. I am blessed beyond my understanding in so many ways. Many of these blessings are intangible, and so are easy to miss when looking through circumstances.
Grace & Peace,
All verses are from the New American Standard Bible (NASB) unless otherwise noted.