2014-12-03 - Slate Wiped Clean
Some years ago, I had the unfortunate experience many have encountered, with the loss of writing that was on an old computer, and not saved to an outside source. The computer was older, and one day it just crashed and died, never to turn on again. I had five years of short stories, poetry and other writing on it that were completely lost. Needless to say, I was profoundly saddened by this occurrence, and as a result, I have always had a flash drive with all my writing saved, “just in case”. In the interim between losing the writing and always having it saved, I didn't do a whole lot of writing. That was at least a couple years, and more recently it has occurred to me why all of it happened.
Sometimes things occur in our lives that are challenging, and even grueling, to live through. We are given different gifts, and sometimes those gifts allow us to better manage our feelings. For me, one of which is writing. I have often loved thinking about the irony of a girl who had to learn to write again as a dyslexic, being expressive through writing. Anyway, there are seasons in our lives that we get through, and letting go requires a bit of assistance. I save stuff, at times, when I shouldn't any more. My maker knows this to be the case, and I am pretty sure that he knew I would get over losing the stuff I wrote, much more easily than it would be for me to get over some of what happened before I was able to write about it. Also, I wouldn't be able to keep going through the stuff and reliving it all, after writing it if it was gone either. So the opportunity to tempt myself was removed. It was timely to the work that was lost.
It doesn't often happen that way, but there are times that when we pray for something to be removed from us, it can happen — quite literally. And for a while, getting what we need and/or ask for, when it's the right thing, may not be fun — but God will see us through it. He gave me a clean slate, to start over from that point till the writing I now do. And he gave me a clean slate to try again, every time I make a mess of things in this life, as one of his children. I am so grateful for all of it, even at times of challenge, recovery, starting over and not understanding. He understands me, and so I trust in that fact.
All scripture references are from the New International Version (NIV) unless otherwise noted.