2016-05-15 - What Would King David Say?
The king was shaken. He went up to the room over the gateway and wept. As he went, he said: “O my son Absalom! My son, my son Absalom! If only I had died instead of you–O Absalom, my son, my son!" (2 Samuel 18:33-34 NIV)
It's hard to hold a grudge, when it's your own flesh and blood. Absalom, my son, made his share of mistakes, just like I have. Some of his decisions were vengeful against me, against our family, which affected our relationship, but my love for him did not stop. It has not stopped in death. I am still sad my son is gone. We never rectified anything.
It isn't easy to remain on this Earth after one of your children die. I have been here before, when my firstborn with Bathsheba died as an infant. Absalom died as an adult, with so much potential, so much left undone and unsaid. It did not have to end this way.
Even though I was king, I did not hide my sadness. I was a father first, mourning for my wayward son. I wasn't focused on what Absalom's death meant to the throne or my place as king. My advisor Joab reminded me work came first, and I'd lose my army if I didn't get my emotions under control. Perhaps being less introspective would ease the pain over Absalom. It sounds good, but I am not sure how.
Lord, I am in intense pain, and don't know what to do. Please make it better, soon! In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
All scripture references are from the Contemporary English Version (CEV) unless otherwise noted.