2017-01-25 - Try Again
I still struggle. Do you? Some days I wake up and feel as though I can conquer the world, so to speak. Other days, I swear I must have fallen from the bed several times with injury during the night, somehow not remembering the whole thing at all. Wednesday was choice number two. So I walked into the gym, unconsciously looking for a reason to not stay there. And upon seeing the possibility of having to wait for a lane to swim, I turned left with every intention of trying again the next day. Halfway down the hall, this little voice in my head said to me “so you’re not even going to try?” Who knew the Holy Spirit could irritate you, but at this particular moment it did. So much so, as it knew, that I turned around and walked back toward the locker room. I changed and waited about ten minutes before swimming my laps and feeling much better for having tried and then succeeding.
Later, the whole thing reminded me of when my Mother would tell me I needed to do a chore or homework, and I would get so irritated. In part, I supposed I would rather have gone outside to play, yet obeyed, mostly because she was right. And the spirit, to me, works in much the same way. It’s the voice in my head, taking what I know to be true and right, and keeping me accountable. My Grandma got that ball rolling with Mom, and then Mom with me, by first being the voices in our heads. I believe that’s a wonderful family tradition, which I have then passed on to my daughter and perhaps her to another. She has already begun as a teacher just out of graduate school. And there will be more struggles. But as long as the spirit we’ve received is part of our lives, we will find comfort, guidance and fulfillment along the way. I have the spirit with me. Do you?
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. “ (1 Corinthians 13:6-8 NIV)
All scripture references from King James Version (KJV) unless otherwise noted