2017-02-01 - My Path
This past week marks two things very personal to me. The first was the anniversary of the day my mother passed away twenty-one years ago. A week after, it would have been her seventy-second birthday. We all know, at a certain point of our lives, that the circle of life includes being born and then dying. The reality is much different, when say comparing the losses of other family members, my pet hamsters as a child, my first dog as a grown woman, my mother at age twenty-eight and everything in between. It’s a beautiful mess, indeed, and while not having her here physically has been hard, I have found great comfort over time, in not only her being in a place of peace without pain, but also the joys of all she has left with me in so many ways.
I was remembering her telling me, as a woman out of college and recently married, that “someday your ship will come in.” My Mom was an amazing woman, and not all that interested in the things of this world. Even if she’d had a lot of money she would not have found it the source of her satisfaction. She had all she needed, and was very easily satisfied. All that to say her using the reference to a ship was not about getting rich, as once was a main meaning in times of ship trading, but about reaping the rewards of investing time and energy into talents and things that are put on my heart to be used for God’s glory.
A quote I found on YahooAnswers.com paraphrases it best to me with: “So to wait for your ship to come in was literally to wait for the investment you had made to arrive.” There are many types of investments, and the ones that are most valuable are not primarily monetary in origin. Profits in that form are a byproduct of what is truly valuable to me, and a way to get to where God wants me to be.
So I continue to think about my ship coming in and what that looks like for me. It isn’t the same for each person, due to the fact we are not all made for the same purpose. I think that idea gets lost out in the world, but also within the church very often. Yes, there are times we all need to jump in and do whatever is necessary. However, if we intend to fully follow God’s plan and not our own plans, we need to consider how much more valuable each of us can be when we are doing those things that God knows give us joy. Those things that make us feel so much more alive are ones that have joy attached to them. I think of one of my favorite sports announcers talking about how he feels like he’s stealing money because he gets to do what he adores all the time, and has been able to do it for more than three-and-a-half decades. And his love of his work exudes from his voice and his expressions when they have him on camera. It’s infectious, and if you love the sport, you cannot help but feel as excited as he is while hearing him.
How much more of God can we exude to anyone we meet, when we are working within his perfect will in how he designed us? I’m continuing to pray about what God has for me at this moment in time. Different stages of life call for changes, and as long as he knows my goal is to be in his will, he will show me what to do next. I’m so grateful for his investment in me, and how I should use it for his glory. So very blessed!
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” (Jeremiah 29:11-13)
All scripture references from King James Version (KJV) unless otherwise noted