[CF Devotionals] 2011-01-03 - What Would Rebekah Say?

What Would They Say Series #2

Genesis 29:16-18, 25-28, 31:3, 14-19, 30-37

"Surely all the wealth that God took away from our father belongs to us and our children. So do whatever God has told you." (Genesis 31:16)

My husband Jacob adored me. It wasn't enough. His love and dedication didn't keep me happy or satisfied. It was not my husband's entire fault. My father and sister Leah had a hand in making things difficult. Because of Laban's selfishness, I had to share the man I loved with Leah. I blamed everyone but myself for my hardships, and didn't take responsibilities for my actions. Although Jacob loved me best, and I was younger and prettier than Leah, I still didn't feel secure - and vainly competed with Leah to see which one of us could have the most children.

After many years, Jacob decided we would leave my father's place and return to his relatives. Before we left, I stole my dad's gods while he was out shearing sheep. I wanted to take something of his so he would know what it is like to have something taken from him. I wanted him to pay for giving Leah to Jacob. I also thought the idols would bring protection on the journey. Was I wrong.

Jacob knew nothing about my stealing the gods, so when my dad confronted us about them, Jacob denied it, and said whoever was in possession of them would die. I wished Jacob would stop talking; he had no idea what he was saying. I didn't move when Jacob said those words, I didn't want to draw any attention to myself. Jacob gave Laban permission to search our possessions. While Dad was searching elsewhere, I hid the gods inside my camel's saddle - and sat on the saddle. When I came face to face with Laban, I made up some excuse that I was not feeling well, and he'd have to forgive me for not getting down off the animal. Dad bought my excuse and went looking elsewhere.

At that moment, I realized I was no better than my dad. I had turned into him, lying and stealing for my own selfish gain. Perhaps this move will help me feel more content, and take away the desire to lie and compare.

Lord, Some faults, even forgiven ones, are starting to resurface. I give them over to You right now, God. In order for me to be effective for You, I need a peaceful existence. Thank You for lifting this oppression. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

What do you think or believe God has for you? What does your future hold?

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