2013-08-10 - Reminders
The sun finally came back out, after about three weeks of near constant rain. I was very excited to be able to get outside for a while and "play" in the yard. I felt pretty good. No migraine, no noticeable Fibromyalgia pain - so I figured I would do a couple small things trimming-wise out front, taking it pretty easily, and just enjoying the sunshine and lower temperatures. I got my hedge trimmer, rake, clipping bucket and trash can - all outside and ready to go. Got the cord from the garage and plugged it in, and began to decide which shrubs needed the most work. I love to use the light electric trimmer, although cords and I have a long history of not getting along well. There's either some place tangled, something gets pulled out of socket, I manage to get tripped up by them at some point - or a combination of those on any given day.
So I was careful to avoid any of these possibilities, the other day, by taking my time. I was almost halfway through what I wanted to get done, and twisted in some odd manner, trying to avoid running the blade of the trimmer into the cord (one thing that was not in my consideration of issues) and I felt my back near my hip sort of pop - and suddenly a searing pain all down my leg stopped me cold. All I would think was "wow!!!" I stood there a minute after getting from a slightly leaned to an upright position, and it continued to get worse. I did manage to finish what I was doing and get everything put away in the next hour or so, but by the time I was trying to go to sleep, the throbbing was nearly unbearable. It was all out of the realm of consideration before I started that beautiful day. Isn't that so common? We think of pretty much anything that can happen in a scenario, and anything we might need, but something unexpected comes up, to remind us we only have so much we can do on our own.
I know that when I am on my own, I am pretty well useless, and I do my best to remember each morning I wake up, that it has nothing to do with me. I got the reminder of where my strength comes from, when I had to pick up my rake by flipping it up with my foot rather than leaning over and picking it up with my hand. Even something as simple as trying to sleep became a huge challenge during the past couple nights, so I am reminded of being in a mortal body. The other thing I am reminded of is this. Although this back pain was terribly uncomfortable, it somehow didn't bother me as much as the other chronic pain I deal with, mainly because this was an injury. I knew how it happened, and sort-of knew why. I knew, even at the moment it happened, that it was temporary - and within a few days there would be a noticeable amount of relief. With migraine and Fibromyalgia, it's not always the case. And there's no known reason, for the most part, as to why it starts or stops.
And this led me to another thought: A reminder of the pain of the flesh being finite and that pain is not eternal for those who love the Father in Heaven. What a relief!!! Having chronic pain can sometimes cloud the mind to the point of not remembering this fact. So in a strange way, I am glad I injured my back, to remind me my pain is temporary. It makes each day more joyful, knowing this fact. I hope you also know or will soon know this same joy.
"My Brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience." (James 1:2,3)