2014-06-02 - What Would Moses Say?
Now therefore, go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall say. (Exodus 4:12 NKJV)
How can you ask me to do this, Lord? I will need boldness and a tough skin. It isn't in my makeup to confront, let alone lead others and yet You want, rather, expect me to do this insurmountable feat. I don't get it. How am I going to do any good in this situation? Certainly there is a better, an easier way, Lord.
I wish to get past this crippling fear. It overtakes my life, my thoughts. It is something I am not proud of, but I don't know how to live any other way. I realize You will be with me. You told me so and that isn't enough to convince me that I can help free the oppressed. I don't feel as confident as You, God that I can truly do this. My oppression is not as extreme as the Israelites, yet I know what it is like to be controlled and haunted by an unwanted master. It's asking too much to believe I can be a different person. I just want to run and hide in a dark, deep cave. Deep down I know that wouldn't help, as I can't escape Your presence. That is something I can rejoice in, when all else fails.
Lord, May I be willing to ask You for the impossible. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
Why didn't Moses just ask God to help him be less timid?
All scripture references are from the NIV unless otherwise noted.