2018-06-27 - What are You Doing?
Tiptoeing and reaching for the ramekin on the top shelf, I felt it slip from my hand, and then in my mind, I gasped “oh no!” as it plummeted to hit one of my only family treasures. I could only wince as I watched pieces flying, and sugar spreading out on the counter. The bone china bowl, likely made before my birth, with the image of petals of the most fragrant roses I have ever had, was now missing a handle, a lid knob, and cracked in a way which made it junk. The remaining cream pitcher, along with four cups and saucers, will taunt me as I think of how my grandmother would be sad, too. Since then, I have moved those ramekins from the top shelf to the bottom front, near my coffee cups.
It took a crisis and heartbreak for me to change how I prioritized the organization of my dishes. Why is that so? Do you have anything or anyone in your life that seems to fall by the wayside until a crisis erupts? Do you want it to change? Or do you try to change, but somehow fall back into those same patterns, resulting in heartbreak? We all do it to certain extent, but a long-term solution for any of us may lie in starting with a simple rule. Stop making promises and telling yourself what you should do - and just move the ramekins.
When our kids were about half their current ages, we would tell them to “stop apologizing, and change what you are doing.” It seems simplistic, yet it is at the core of true repentance. It took me a long time to understand, before passing it on to my kids. My kids were inclined to remember what I did before what I said I wanted to do. Case in point was something like hitting myself with a hammer, and it is resulting in phrases inappropriate for children, followed by them clearly repeating them, of course. So I had to change my response to a slip of the claw hammer, just as moving the ramekins, to expect a different result.
I am grateful for God’s provision, in helping make the changes necessary in my heart and mind, to be my best and not to be carrying around a broken heart full of doubt and regret about the life I have been given and how I have lived it. What are you doing, that you wish was different? Why are you still sitting here? ☺
“Even if I caused you sorrow by my letter, I do not regret it. Though I did regret it–I see that my letter hurt you, but only for a little while– yet now I am happy, not because you were made sorry, but because your sorrow led you to repentance. For you became sorrowful as God intended and so were not harmed in any way by us. For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death.” (2 Corinthians 7:8-10 KJV)
All scripture references are from the New International Version (NIV) unless otherwise noted.